so i've started a new blog...mostly about the same stuff i'm writing about on here. weird. i am soooo weird. anyway. not sure why i did it. i guess i forgot about this one. i should just roll them up together. maybe i will. but not tonight. tonight, i'm too tired to do much more than what i've just done. what have i just done, you ask? i've taken care of four kids all night long who were just about all cranky for one reason or another. my three year old fussed all night in her sleep last night, and whined all day long. i guess she's coming down with something. my baby was just kinda like that, but in a little better mood. me and the hubby were both tired, but since he works nights and he was running around all day, he had to sleep this evening...so that meant i was alone pretty much all day and night. but that doesn't happen very often anymore, thank God.

my three year old finally went and passed out about an hour ago. up until then she was fussing over everything. every time she'd lay down, she'd fuss b/c her covers weren't just right...and there was something on her bed..or her little sister was in their room...or she wanted to eat (after she'd already had one banana for a snack) and so on and so forth. she was exhausting today, and i'm in need of a small break.

i exercised today. can you believe that? me and the girls did jumping jacks and sit ups and stretched and did some squats (that hurt) and some more basic stuff, can't remember what. the point being, we moved. we didn't just sit. we broke a sweat. well..i did. i am severly out of shape. it sucks. so anyway. that was a glimpse into my day. hope i didn't put you to sleep. hopefully i'll get to do some of that in just a bit. (you know...sleep...)

this is..what it is...

i guess i should start my first blog entry by telling you something about myself. well..i'm kinda boring. i have lots of things to say, but most of the time i'm too shy to say them. i feel strongly about certain things, and i usually know what i'm talking about. i'm pessimistic, (hence the blog title), but i try to be optimistic.
most of the time when that happens, people don't realize i'm actually TRYING to be optimistic. they don't get it. let me think of an example.....ok, um....well, i really can't think of anything at this point, but if it comes to me i'll let you know.
i have lots of political opinions but i'm a christian. and i really hate when people try to argue with me about that. i let my kids watch harry potter, i don't know why i wouldn't. it's a movie. the kids know there is no such thing as talking monkey's (curious george), flying elephants, (dumbo), and real spy kids, so why would they believe there are wizards??? so i find nothing evil about harry potter. i love him.
and yes, i have four kids. their ages are 10, 7, 3, and 1. and i'm a stay at home mom, who wants to believe there is more to me than just the mommy aspect. not that there is anything wrong with that. but sometimes i feel like i'm supposed to do more in this world. i try to tell myself that maybe this is my job...to create good people to go out into the world. but i still feel there is more to ME. i don't know.
i like to ramble, and talk about random things. i have ADD and you can tell by the way i tell a story. i can't stick on one subject. i get lost in details. it will take me an hour to go into walmart for just a few things if i see someone i know.
i love people. i love the way we are all different, and we all have different opinions. but i love it more when those opinions are honored and respected.
i don't like losers. i really really don't like losers and liars. and cheaters. and whores. but that's about it. oh, and stupid people. i don't like those either.
so this is what it is. i'm just going to write about my everyday life from now on. if you want to read it, great. if not, oh well. i'm not losing any sleep over it, that's for sure. but i would like for you to come back and check this out later. i'm just boring right now. it's too early in my day for anything exciting to happen. all the excitement happened last night. my mom's car caught fire. yep. that's right. it burnt. we don't know why yet. and if it would've burned for five minutes later it would've taken the house too. so i don't really want too much excitement today.
well today is halloween....so i guess that's exciting. unless you're me. i'm dreading it. i tend to stay in the house and not go anywhere ever, so i don't really want to go. and walking all over is going to get old, not to mention, i'm sure someone is going to be cold, and not want to walk. i'm sure they aren't going to want to quit trick or treating when i'm ready to quit, and i'm sure i will be spazzing out about them walking in front of cars. then we have to go all the way to another town to see my dad, who is in a nursing home. so this is going to be a LOOOONNNNGGG night.

but at least it's wednesday! we're almost through the week! (see? optimism...oh..you missed it? sorry.) happy halloween!!!